(11:21pm Sunday)
I think I got two metaphors mixed up there... Still.
I am angry. I will not give in and text or call him. I want an apology. He was a dick to me.
He was half asleep... Might not even remember being a dick, or why I'm pissed at him.
Still, he knows I'm pissed at him. Why do guys always think it's a good idea to leave a girl alone when she's pissed? Maybe for a little while, after that I want to be pursued, apologized to and hugged. Hell, it probably wouldn't have gotten to the pissed stage if I had received a hug and a sorry almost immediately...
Maybe I could just text him "hey..." let him know I'm open to a coversation if he'd like to start apologizing.
But if I do that I lose all my power right?
Why am I even worried about it? I said I wanted to break up with him. This fight is as good of an opportunity as any. Is it just because I hate conflict this much? Maybe it's just that I want to make it clear why I'm pissed. Maybe I actually like him more then I've been willing to admit.
Dammit no, the sex still isn't that good. I want to date other guys, but I like having him around too. That's not fair.
I want him to want to contact me. So I can tell him he's a dick and he can apologize and then what? Grrr...
What if he didn't apologize? That would be bullsh*t and I wouldn't stand for it right? right?
I thought he would've called by now... (pitiful)
Update(2:41pm the Monday): I have to admit I broke down and texted him. Still I feel like my text was borderline. "Hey... you can call me if you want."
He did call about 20 minutes later. It wasn't the best conversation. With him telling me he wasn't going to change and me telling him I didn't care if he changed, but it didn't mean he could treat me like crap either... Yeah... He said he'd text me in the morning. No text. So if I don't hear from him today can I assume we're not dating anymore? Or do I have to actually say the words?
I think I got two metaphors mixed up there... Still.
I am angry. I will not give in and text or call him. I want an apology. He was a dick to me.
He was half asleep... Might not even remember being a dick, or why I'm pissed at him.
Still, he knows I'm pissed at him. Why do guys always think it's a good idea to leave a girl alone when she's pissed? Maybe for a little while, after that I want to be pursued, apologized to and hugged. Hell, it probably wouldn't have gotten to the pissed stage if I had received a hug and a sorry almost immediately...
Maybe I could just text him "hey..." let him know I'm open to a coversation if he'd like to start apologizing.
But if I do that I lose all my power right?
Why am I even worried about it? I said I wanted to break up with him. This fight is as good of an opportunity as any. Is it just because I hate conflict this much? Maybe it's just that I want to make it clear why I'm pissed. Maybe I actually like him more then I've been willing to admit.
Dammit no, the sex still isn't that good. I want to date other guys, but I like having him around too. That's not fair.
I want him to want to contact me. So I can tell him he's a dick and he can apologize and then what? Grrr...
What if he didn't apologize? That would be bullsh*t and I wouldn't stand for it right? right?
I thought he would've called by now... (pitiful)
Update(2:41pm the Monday): I have to admit I broke down and texted him. Still I feel like my text was borderline. "Hey... you can call me if you want."
He did call about 20 minutes later. It wasn't the best conversation. With him telling me he wasn't going to change and me telling him I didn't care if he changed, but it didn't mean he could treat me like crap either... Yeah... He said he'd text me in the morning. No text. So if I don't hear from him today can I assume we're not dating anymore? Or do I have to actually say the words?
Ugh, I remember that feeling. It's like, maybe you don't like him all that much, but it would be nice if you were still in control of the situation.
ReplyDeleteTry not to contact him, as hard as it is. If you do, you'll look pathetic (this is experience talking here, I'm one of those pathetic girls) and the ball won't be in your court anymore.
Ugh. Games. Exhausting.
Thanks TB, it's just too bad I gave into the urge before I read your comment. lol. And you posted only minutes after I did too!
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